Fun While It Lasts

I have precious little time, but I just had to squeeze out a few comments:

• Damn it was cold today! I walked outside for not even ten minutes and my forehead was numb for a long time after.
  
• Had dinner and movie with FREd after working for about five hours:
  
  • Pros
    
    • Had cute waitress at restaurant, which is saying something since I wouldn't normally comment/care. FREd agreed.
      
    • FREd admitted the reason why he gets that "sad look on his face" on occasion when we're intimate is because he really would like to fuck me, but still feels like that would be crossing the line (OK, maybe not quite a "pro", but still informative, and I did want to know).
      
    • Had fabulous make-out session during the movie (Daybreakers). I mean, I don't even recall more than thirty percent of the movie, tops. We're talking serious tongue kissing, fondling, and direct hands-down-his-pants action on my part. Go me! It's fun to be aggressive after all. Even better, he took to it well. =D
      
    • He drove me back to the Howard station so I was able to get there before the last train left.
      
  • Cons
    
    • At dinner, spent entirely too much time talking about work/Valuation theory. Maybe it's been too long since I've interacted with people who genuinely and venerably care about work or our industry or what have you, but it honestly irked me, which I did tell him in the end (which I think was actually a good move on my point; I think T would have been proud). He was taken aback, and I felt a little bad, so I indulged him a bit further, but I'm not sure I could honestly take this on an ongoing basis (I have to wonder, with significant fear, if this were a "real" relationship, would this be a deal-breaker?). I would like to explore this further, possibly even outside this blog (whoa!), but no time now.
      
    • Lost my Nintendo DSi somewhere between leaving work and walking to his car to go home. Checked the restaurant to no avail. Will consider checking movie theatre tomorrow, but it will be a busy day, so I'm kind of writing this one off. Too bad, actually, as that's $170 (system) + $30 (game that was in it at the time, either Metroid Prime: Hunters or Zelda: Phantom Hourglass) + whatever a DS card costs these days. Maybe this is some kind of sign I really do need a phone/MP3 player (or that once I get one, I need to take better care not to lose it). =(
      
    • There were some awkward silences in the car ride from downtown to Howard. I was going to mention it in my "post-date" e-mail, but then lost my nerve. Not sure if it's worth addressing or not.
      
    • I wanted to say, "I love you", but never got it out. Not sure if I'm just pushing/substituting/projecting or not.
      
    • I continue to be very sad after these encounters end. Will I ever find my own man that I can love (and loves me)?
      
• The Mother threatened a "long talk". I'm genuinely scared. I could so see her saying, "If you don't get a cell phone by the end of the month, I'm throwing you out," or "You have to be home all day for at least one day per weekend so I can rely on you," neither of which should be that hard to comply with, per se, but I still don't like where this is going, but that may simply be too bad. <shrugs> At least she didn't bitch when I got home tonight, although I could tell she was not happy. Should I have to apologize for going out? I'm probably oversimplifying there (OK, a lot), but this is not something I was really expecting to have to deal with, but maybe I should have. Frankly, I never really expected to have this kind of opportunity in the first place, but now that it's here, it's very hard to ignore.
  

As always, it seems, there was more to say, but I grow weary and tomorrow is going to be such a rush. I should get up at 6 AM at the latest, but I could totally see myself snoozing until my regular time of 8 AM. I can't wait until reserves are final. Everything else after that is algorithmic, which at least I can handle on minimal to no sleep. This critical thinking shit/decision making is hard (said in whiny little rich girl voice)!